returning

it has become increasingly important to me to give in to faith. when i say that, i am not talking about the church or holy bible, but rather the transcendental force that is the universe.

i have realized that it is so important to return to the wholeness that we were born with. we live in such an unpredictable world that sustains itself on change. drastic change, none of which is reliable. what is reliable is the internal peace we are able to create as individuals and sustain.

i have been going through a process of excavation for quite some time now and each chord i stumble on, however painful, has delivered me closer to my true self. and more important, to the parts of me that need healing. so, when i speak of returning, i don't expect that we return in the same form we arrived, but in a different way. in a way we can relate to our emotional self, our childhood self, our adolescent self, our young adult self. all of these periods of identity that maybe did not get the attention nor the ability to fully express who they are.

i listen to people all the time talking about this fleeting notion of happiness. but what i hear beneath the surface of everyday language is people expressing their desire to feel WHOLE. happiness changes every passing minute, but wholeness, the feeling that one has everything they could possibly need, that is sustainable. and that is something no one in the world can take away.

so, as i traverse through this yogic valley, this healing valley, i am sometimes defensive, but most times receptive. i know beyond my human abilities to reason that there is something for me here. for all of us here. we just have to sit quietly enough for the truth to arise from the cave of our soul.

"your heart is the softest place on earth. take care of it."

-nayyirah waheed

photo credit: james jackson