just the other day, as i was cueing up my first of the month to do list, i paused and glanced at my name on a pepco bill. Nesanet N Alemayhu, followed by my address, Washington, DC 20016. it was a strange sensation. i don’t think i had ever looked at my name on a document and paused before. i thought, who is this Nesanet N Alemayhu? what has she become over the years? and is her external personality, the one that people receive, the same as what she feels inside?
last week, i spent a few days in portland, maine and boston, massachusetts visiting family and friends. it had been some time since i was in boston, the place where i feel like i did a whole lot of growing up. i actually experienced a deep longing, likely because i was sitting right outside the boston commons, on a glorious sunny day, wondering if i could in fact live there again. Nesanet Alemayhu was a young college student in those days, running around between fenway park and the south end, certainly not visualizing a future in Washington, DC.
the mystery of life is so mysterious! when i lived in boston, my immediate concerns were about my classes, my girlfriends at simmons, baseball games i did not want to miss, and maybe a few other things. when i look back today, i think, if that girl only knew where her life would go.
if we knew with certainty what would come next, would we be more open?
i find myself in constant awe of this universe, what my life has become, the experiences i have had, and those that are headed for me now. wherever you are reading this today, i hope you find comfort in knowing that there is so much more to come!
in the words of dr. seuss:
you have brains in your head.
you have feet in your shoes.
you can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
you’re on your own. and you know what you know.
and YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
practice continues with me on saturdays, 10:30-11:45 am at fuse. a 75 minute opportunity to move contemplatively from space to space and allowing those small journeys into yourself to serve as guidance for leading a conscious life.
happy may, i am excited for all the places you will go!